Im feeling so good and just absolutely so in love with everything and living in general !!!
I feel like I’m thriving :) I have so many ideas !! I’m super excited to finally be getting caught up on everything because it means I can finally spend more time on the ideas I want to plan out and make happen rather than constantly rushing everything :)
I feel like I’ve been a minimum of one step behind for sooo long… and I’m finally on track if not maybe even *ONE STEP AHEAD ?!?!?* if that’s even possible … ! It feels so refreshing and amazing :) and just absolutely so relaxing to not be half as hard on myself and instead actually be able to uplift myself for once… 🥰❤️
Spent my afternoon finishing up editing some pics and vids from earlier :) feeling super productive and happy !! <3 I really love to stay busy lol :p
I’m very excited because I just about have all of March scheduled and planned out content wise which means the next photoshoot and vids I do will be Easter themed !! :) I feel super on top of everything and so organized !! :) I really intend to keep it up and continue this energy… I still have a whole pile of work and things that need to get done but once I finally get everything caught up I’ll be golden :) yayyyyy !!! :p
I ended up getting sooo much stuff done today !!!
I’m so happy !! :) I feel super accomplished … especially because I’ve been feeling a bit meh about the amount I’ve been getting done every day … and feeling bummed about about missing a video like only a few weeks into setting a schedule for myself … but ahhh !!! It doesn’t even matter anymore because I got so much done !!! :)
Here’s a list of the videos I got recorded today…
💗 pillow grinding
💗 anal winking
💗 fingering myself
💗 spit play
💗 over clothes pussy play : <- I MADE MYSELF CUM FOR THE FIRST TIME USING MY HANDS !! 😳💦
I already sent out a few so :p they might not be surprises any more since this post is going to go up later but … ahhhh I feel so accomplished and proud and I really hope you enjoy all the work I’ve done today !! :) <3
Goodmorning!!! :) I woke up a bit flustered because… well Wednesday I meant to record a video because I had been putting it off all week and really needed one posted by Thursday… and then I didn’t get it done … and yesterday I mean I got a lot of things done - a TON of things done in fact - but that wasn’t one of them … so now it’s Friday and part of me was thinking ok whatever fuck it I’ll just miss a week but THEN I saw my score dropped and I was like ughhh if I post a video still I could maybe get it to drop more ? 🤔😭 so dammit !!! Today I’m recording some videos !!! 😭
I have a little list… ;) I’ll let you know later how it’s going anddddd what I end up getting recorded ! :p excitinggggggg !!!
***smiles for miles !!!***
I’m feeling really good in this moment :) I found an old to do list with a bunchhhh of stuff on it and I went through and crossed off everything I did and just reflected on how much I’ve been able to get done these past few weeks :) I feel like I have turned around and renovated EVERYTHING completely: every aspect of my life and all my platforms and just literally everything !!! My skin is looking better than it has in months… my hair is at the longest it’s been in years… I feel so ~ *me* ~ blonde !!! I’ve totally renovated my living area and just ahhh I feel so good I feel so happy and healthy :) I’ve been doing yoga and stretches every single night !!! I want to do the splits so badly I’ve been working extra hard on it to make up for all the progress I lost for all the time I wasn’t doing my stretches… I just finally feel like I’m back in a routine I feel so good :) I really needed this and I feel like I’m really going to start to thrive soon and start seeing the results of all the work I’ve been putting in !!! It’s all been about getting my shit together and fixing everything I had - but now everything is patched and repaired and I’m looking forward to the future and focused on creating new things and perfecting new ideas :) - a completely new experience and headspace for me really because I’ve always been one step behind… I’m finally one step ahead 🥰❤️
**seeing double**
Ughhh I have so much stuff to do and if I’m being honest … all I really want to do is watch movies and crochet …
I have this really big moth blanket I’m working on and it’s sooo big I think I’m going to have to do it in 4 different parts… but I just want to work on it !!! I don’t want to do anything else 😭 I also think it would look super cute on the couch lol so obviously I mean like that’s a PRIORITY!!
I got some lil’ fake plants and did some diy stuff and my room is sooo cute now like … I’m so insanely proud of it and I can’t wait to take pics in it !!! 😭💕 seriouslyyy it’s going to look so good !! :) I’m so happy my bed is actually in a bright spot now and I can get pics with good lighting !!! It’s so pretty with the plants hung up on the walls and this past week I even had time to hang my old mirror so it’s like for real complete !!! Ahhhh !!! :) I think my favorite part is the beautiful satin pink sheets 🥰❤️ You’ll see you’ll see you’ll see !!!
Omg I just can’t wait !!
Besidessss my lil’ crochet project getting done …
I sortaaa had a little moment where I got super upset because I feel like I haven’t been doing enough … and I got a bit hard on myself and felt very sad. So I got up and decided to make a list and not stop doing things until one by one : my entire list was crossed off !!! Honestly it was a very productive little thing to do I ended up vaccuuming ; I cleaned my room and rearranged a ton of stuff :) I painted my nails, trimmed my hair, and even did a face mask ! :p now it is time to rest … for I can finally say I got enough done !!😭😇❤️
Despite feeling sick… I’m making myself kick it into gear today !!! 😈
Seriously…
I finished a crochet project I’ve been working on for a bit ( a gift - a hat for my fiancé !! ♡ ) and it turned out SO CUTE !!! I’m so proud of it I don’t even care that my thumb is super cramped and hurting !!! :p I finished it like sooo super fast too - within 2 days :) it’s starting to not be cold anymore … but hopefully another random cold day will sneak up somewhere so he has a chance to wear it out ! :p
omggg … I woke up at around 2am this morning feeling so horribly sick !! :(
I couldn’t breathe very well and everything is so soreee I feel so miserable :( and what I did sleep was such horrible sleep !!!
I really hope this cold passes soon because I feel like I was just sick not too long ago :( I’ve been pretty dehydrated lately tho so I think that’s how I ended up getting so sick so quick again 😭 sucky .
Do you like my St. Patrick’s day getup ? :p
I wore all green and tried to experiment a lil’ with my makeup 😜💗
Idk why but this pic reminds me of / makes me feel like I’m the love interest in an action movie 😂😜
lmao I hope that wasn’t too dumb / embarrassing to say here just… something about the vibe here in these pics !! :p idkkk . lol
I have over 30 old videos I have to re - download, edit and re - upload to 3 different places … and then FURTHER EDIT ( crop / trim ) and re - upload for 3 different places 😭 so needless to say I have a very very very busy day ahead of me -.-
OH and since I wanted to take pics soon this is all gonna need to be done ASAP … to make room for the new content … .-. Yea.
ALSO : I got boba pearls forever ago and they’re just sitting in my fridge waiting to be cooked and incorporated into some chai milk tea … 🥰❤️ !! So I miiight have to give myself a chai bubble tea break during my editing day today !! ;)
That sounds so good as I’m typing this … I think it’s a plan haha 🤤💗
feeling pretty productive this morning :) and definitely muchhh calmer and better than I have been the past few days 😇🥲 so that’s a very good thing !!
I was going to make myself do the dishes and a few other things I need to get crossed off of my list for the day… just to get it out of the way and so I don’t have to worry about it… but I think I might nap first 😭 it’s still only like 6am rn lol I woke up like supperrr early today !! 😳 but yea … I might nap just a bit more until the cats need to eat around 9 and then restart my day then 😭 oh how I try to be a morning person lol…
I took this when I was doing laundry like forever ago 😭
I literally forgot I even had these pics in my phone … I found them when I was cleaning out my gallery lmao. I decided to post them because why nottttt !!! :p
but anyways yea I literally was using the bathroom at the laundry place and took these 🥲 good memories ??? Memories . That’s for sure !
I feel productive today !! :) I still have a few things left to do… I’m really really praying for less rainy weather these next few days 😭 it’s been so tragic and gloomy here and it’s fucking with my mood so badly !! I’ve been so irritable lately and everything seems to stress me out or overwhelm me so easily… it honestly feels terrible !!!
I’ve been thinking I need to make a bath bomb run… ;) I haven’t gotten any in a while and I really want some !!! I could really use a nice long hot sparkly bath rn 😭😮💨
I really want to workout tonight but I also really don’t 😭 so we’ll see which devil / angel on my shoulders is winning that battle :(
Ever since I gained a bit of weight over Christmas / my birthday break I’ve been feeling so bummy about myself !! :( it’s not even totally that much … I guess I just feel bloated and I haven’t had the chance to tone or train any of the weight out to where I want it to be… :( which would help a lot if I actually have been doing the corset training or working out… which I am having trouble encouraging myself to do… :(( ughhhh omfg why am I like this :(( !!!
**Face Down, Ass Up !!**
I finallyyyyy did some fucking corset training today 😭💗 god bless. An hour an 40 minutes. Not much but better than nothing !! The second time this year I’ve done it and it’s already so far in :( it makes me a lil’ sad because I wanted to do this back last year lmao and I was all “2022 is going to be my year !!!” And then. Here I am… not doing any of the goals I set for myself…
Better late than never I guess ://
naked butt jiggles !!! 😜
Another old video I realized I never posted lol… but I’m posting it now !! :) I have a few more to post tonight too !! 😛 lucky you ;p ;) !! 💋
I was (*finally*) sorting through all my videos I have to organize them and I realized I never posted this one !! :o
it's of me getting my ass oiled and rubbed!! :3 my absolute FAVORITE thing !! <3 :p
I hope you enjoy it !! I know the lighting is kinda meh here... but I guess that just means I'll have to re-record another version with better quality sometime later for you !! ;)
another leftover shot from my Christmas shoot 😭 I saved a bunch of pics from it thinking I’d want to post them at a later date I literally have no clue why please don’t ask me… but uhhh… anyways it has become that later date and I have decided to post them so !!!
but the whole thing kind of makes me happy in a way because it’s like … omg !!! Look how far I’ve come !!! My whole system & method of doing things is so much different now than even just a few months ago !!! Like I’m constantly learning and growing and making progress :) how fun and cool to see growth and change happen in real time :) ✨
