Life update for those that care: My boyfriend and I just bro..
Added 2025-01-08 23:19:38 +0000 UTCLife update for those that care: My boyfriend and I just broke up. I spent a whole year with this person who will be a stranger to me soon. A relationship is so hard to maintain. We kept asking “should it be this hard”. I thought our differences would make us stronger, but I was dead wrong. We did not connect and we certainly didn’t mesh at the end of the day. Can’t believe I spent a year of my life trying to make it work. I just keep thinking “how could I have done better, what could I have done differently”, as if that kind of thinking would change anything now. I spent a year of my life opening up to someone and telling them so much about me, I learned so much about them, we became apart of eachothers lives.We “tried” to make it work, and it’s hard to say but we just weren’t a match.We were not “compatible”. I failed to be a supportive, caring, understanding girlfriend. I failed to love him how he needed to be loved. I struggled to accept who he was as a person. He felt like I wanted him to change & he’s right.I wanted him to make a lot of changes that I thought were a critical part of growing and improving as a person, but I didn’t realize how much I had f0rced him to change, to fit what I wanted.It made me sad to hear how unhappy I made him. I want to treat people better, I want to learn from this, learn from my mistakes, I want to treat my future partner the way they deserve to be treated. I want to be kinder, more accepting of others, more patient. I want to do better and be a better person, and learn how to be a better partner, so that when I finally do meet the right person I can be my best self and be the best partner I can be. My boyfriend met me when I was broken, angry and hateful, but I’ve always known myself to be that way. All I want now is to see a change in myself.I just want to see myself do better at this point. All I need is my words to match my actions now.
