So today is pretty cool.. even though it started shitty because I slept in by FIVE HOURS and missed my much needed phsyio appointment for my sprained ankle (which I have to pay a 40$ cancelation fee for rip me), and also had to rearrange my schedule for the entire week to try and catch up to all the work I had to do this morning š š
Today I am the lowest I have weighed in I think 3 or 4 years. I have lost 15 pounds since quarantine started and I plan on losing about 10 more. Donāt worry Iāll still be thiccccc because part of the reason Iām going so ham on phsyio is so that I can heal all these damn injuries so I can get back to weight training. When I start weight training Iāll be focusing on my booty and thighs again for sure which will keep em all plumped up and what not
Iāve never been āfatā or āoverweightā according to doctors, because Iāve always been well within a health weight range for my height (5ā11 or so). However I didnāt always used to be thiccc. When I started cosplaying I weighed 135/140 pounds, I didnāt look anything like I do now. Honestly I look better now than I did then. But the problem for me was that the birth control I was on started making me gain weight rapidly and none of the doctors I went to seemed worried, or even thought the birth control was the issue. I only found out when I decided to get off of it and see what happened. Over the course of 3 months I went from 135 to 185 pounds. With no change in diet, or exercise. People said āoh itās probably just your metabolism and you are still healthyā and I was like yeah except my clothes donāt fit and I gained FIFTY pounds for no reason???? When I eventually got off the birth control it took a few months but I lost about 20 pounds, dropping to 170. I tried a bunch of diets to lose the rest of the weight (believe it or not this was before thiccc was considered a good thing and people commented that I was fat on every single photo I posted) none of the diets worked, none of the exercise worked I was stuck.
I maintained that weight for a while before trying yet another birth control (I donāt want babies obviously). This birth control did the same thing. Everyone kept saying oh just give it 6 months to even out, weight gain is a side effect you can get but it can go away. At the 4 month mark I had gone up to 195 pounds. This is with dieting and going to the gym three days a week (it wasnāt muscle weight I promise you). So I said no, Iām not doing this and I went off of it. Again, after a few months I lost about 15 pounds and dropped to 185, where I was stuck for a year. It wouldnāt budge. And believe me when I say I tried every diet I could think of.
I started quarantine at 185, and again, healthy weight, I wasnāt in bad shape, also my physical activities meant I was still very strong. But I was just tired of ordering clothes and costumes online and never having them fit me. Itās super depressing to spend money on things that say they will fit and then they donāt. So I decided to try again to lose weight. This time I did something different - Iāve learned that my digestive system is FUCKED and eating often causes me pain. I looked into this and found out about the FODMAP diet which is about cutting out foods that contain families of sugar that are known to commonly cause discomfort in people. So in addition to exercise, calorie deficit and FODMAP I FINALLY started to see results for the first time in my life when it comes to weight loss (besides just getting off of birth control). Today I weigh 168 pounds which is just unreal to me. I feel so much better and you can see from these photos that a lot of my bloating has gone down.
Itās so empowering to finally be in control over my body after suffering for so long because of hormonal birth control, especially after numerous doctors tried to tell me thereās no way it was causing me problems because my āhormone levels seemed fineā. Iām on non-hormonal birth control now and it makes such a difference.
Obviously my weight will fluctuate and Iāll have days that are higher and days that are lower especially if I choose to indulge in higher fodmap foods that I know will hurt me. But Iām so happy that Iāve made it this far. Itās funny last year when I was stuck at 185 pounds people kept commenting that it looked like I had either gained/lost weight and it drove me crazy because itās like no - I literally havent- I couldnāt if I tried.
My goal weight is 160 and then Iām just going to work on training my muscles again post injuries, and maintaining that weight.
Sorry for the long post this is just something Iāve never talked about before and I wanted to share about my journey :)
I took this after stream, in surprised because even though Iāve been losing weight my booty has decided to keep chillin and I canāt complain tbh also even tho this photo is hella cake itās the back muscles for me honestly
How are you doing today? What are your weekend plans?
More from the dark demon set :o do you guys prefer dark or light aesthetics?
I think the next set Iāll be releasing is the white demon :3 and we still have 02, dark demon, and the sequin rave set to release!! Iām having so much fun making casual content for you guys :)
With halloween approaching would anyone be interested in purchasing the boosette set I did two years ago? thereās some HD photos and some cute selfies too, some I donāt know if Iāve ever shared :o I could send it out as a ppv if people were interested !
Also happy thanksgiving ^^
Here are some selfies I took after stream last night! This is from the outfit I put together for the custom video request I sent out to your DMs today ^^ hereās a little clip of what to expect if you buy it, lots of dancing and bouncing šø I hope you like this look!
This top was one size fits all, but again I was foiled because that never actually applies to me it seems :ā) it was a struggle to make it work but now it really do be poppin off šŖš»
Should I do a stream on here soon? I saw someone suggest social eating which could be fun! What do you think?
Iām shooting a bunch of looks for sets today :3 this is the first one!! Spooky š„ŗ Iām shooting an Irina nurse look, and a spicy zero two look as well š
Just sent out a little ppv message with some photos of me in this baggy shirt and my new hair~ very casual but still spicy! I made it a cheaper price to make up for the more expensive set I sent out yesterday ^^
do you like my new hair? āŗļø
Snapped this photo after stream last night š
also October is almost here!! I have so many outfits planned I canāt wait to shoot them and share them ahhhh
Here are the sona photos as promised ^^ that means I still have to release the sequin rave set for you guys, and the ppv cat woman set soon :) I canāt wait to get more content shot so I can show it to you all! šø
How are you guys doing? How was your weekend?
Iāll be posting the sona set soon!! Itās almost ready! The end of the month is always crazy busy for me trying to be ready for deadlines and get patreon sets ready to go ^^ also preparing for my subathon tomorrow!! It starts around noon EST please come say hello <3
Hereās my butt. Thatās it. Thatās the post.
No but really I canāt wait to shoot more content for yāall, I have gotten so many cute outfits from eBay and I canāt wait to put together new looks!!
Also Sona got second on the last poll so that will be the next set I release here on the feed :3 I will also be sending the Dom Catwoman through ppv soon if that interests you <3
Gānight š
Hereās the other half!!
Iāll also be sending a little video for ppv in this look if you want more šø
hope your weekend has been amazing so far !!
Hereās the first half of the set!! Iām uploading it in two parts because thereās so many photos ^^
I hope you like this! I had a lot of fun shooting it, I always love shooting in rave looks :)
this is a big set so tips are always appreciated but not necessary!! <3
I will be shooting some more sets soon in the outfits I showed during my try on video!! But for now keep your eyes pealed because im gonna post the blue oil slick rave outfit set I shared previews of a while back, hopefully today or maybe tomorrow :3
for this nurse outfit Iām thinking it might look good as Irina cuz all the dxd girls have tons of nurse outfit cards. What do you think š¤
also super exciting news, I have been saving up for a long time, and yesterday I finally did the thing. Iām a car owner!! Iāve literally never been able to buy a car in my life, and while itās a used car Iām still very excited. Iām finalizing the financing and stuff today and hopefully will get to drive it home. Iām happy because it means it will be easier for me to find cool locations to shoot, and it will be easier for me to get costume supplies like fabric and foam! Anyway I hope you are all having a good day :)
