🦋Womanly curves.🦋 (Hey I’m feeling a lot better! Not taking pain medications anymore! I should be making some new content later today with some cool pieces I got at spirit Halloween! My body isn’t healed entirely yet but it looks a lot less painful to look at so I’ll make some art later today! :) )
So the necklace I’m wearing is from a brand called “Darker Wavs” When I bought some thigh socks from them, they attached this necklace to the packing and I’ve adored the necklace ever since. It’s of a “D” which is the initial for my middle name.
Would you like a playlist to some music I listen to? A lot of it is great for driving and you probably haven’t ever heard of the songs yet. 💙 https://www.youtube.com/playl…
Well today I learned that due to my mental disorders, weed edibles are a terrible idea. I got severe ptsd from it and I can’t even begin to explain how agonizingly terrifying that ptsd was. I got amnesia and could not remember what happened three seconds ago. I could not feel my legs. I was unable to speak because I could not translate my thoughts into words which was terrible when my roomate asked what was wrong and if I was okay or in serious pain and I couldn’t even explain what was wrong. I thought I was dreaming and about to talk to dead children who speak to me during sleep paralysis. If you’re wondering what my mental disorders are, they’re not medically diagnosed because I’m too worried it will discourage jobs from hiring me. I’ve dealt with schizophrenia for the past ten years but I’ve managed it by making severe life changes like not sleeping at night anymore. I also have narcolepsy which means I tend to over sleep and hallucinate auditable things. I’ve had sleep paralysis so bad that I feared I’d never return to my body ever again. I personally learned the hard way not to take edibles for pain from surgery. It was hell. It was all hell. I’m traumatized from it. I have been severely impacted mentally from what I’ve endured during sleep paralysis and being high was a huge trigger. Because lucid dreaming and sleep paralysis does feel like being so insanely high that you can’t operate your own smart phone. And when I go into sleep paralysis, I struggle desperately to escape it before I’m stuck inside of it for what feels like hours and hours and hours of opening and closing doors to try and exit the sleep paralysis world because if I am injured during my sleep paralysis, my schizophrenic brain will feel that make-believe pain very vividly. So if I hurt my self in a dream, I experience the actual pain. So the intense high gave me ptsd and I lost cognitive function to speak. Never again. Sorry. My brain gets high like this by itself and drags me through agonizing mental trauma on its own.
Hey guys. I’m one week into my recovery and my breast implants are healing pretty well! I have a video call with my surgeon tomorrow on Tuesday! My breasts have a lot more dropping to do. I don’t know my breast size yet in bras because my breasts haven’t fallen and settled yet but it’s looking like I could be a size E. Maybe a triple D? Still some swelling. Lot less pain now. Two more weeks of recovery! Thank you guys for being patient with me. <3 I still have nudes to post from before I had my surgery done!
Whooooo five days since my breast augmentation surgery and I’m still a bit high off my pain meds. I love you guys. I still have more scheduled posts for you guys. ☺️💜 My breasts are going to look huge and amazing once they’re really healed.